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仿佛快要忘记那熟悉的味道
仿佛快要忘记那熟悉的白色分隔线
已经感觉不到聆听枪声的紧张
再也没有过挥汗的夏日
曾经熟悉的圆弧是一场献祭
将无忧的青春燃烧殆尽
脚下钉鞋刺进树胶的感觉
热浪扭曲空气的感觉
大口呼吸周围氧气的感觉
炙热阳光灼烧皮肤的感觉
寒冷空气切割脸庞的感觉
还有那头晕目眩的感觉
都已经慢慢逝去 不再回来
第一次踏上这橙色的胆怯
第一次崭露头角的兴奋
第一次俯视所有对手的狂妄
第一次将市记录划归名下的激动
第一次报废整年的没落
都已经在脑海里渐渐逝去
消逝的还有那永不屈服的心
还有累到趴在地上吐却连头也抬不起的窘况
还有连续两次和省记录擦肩而过的遗憾
以及那些最最熟悉的感觉
已经再也聆听不到整个世界只有心跳和呼吸的声音
就让这一切慢慢的死去 慢慢的消亡
只有伤痕给我作证 曾经站在过这片橙色之上
仅此纪念 那些逝去的年月日
杂乱思念
思念像是风暴 堆积在我的世界
我睁开眼望着天花板 我坐在蝌蚪文前的课堂
我在呼吸着紫色的烟云 在刺眼的电脑显示屏前
在怕冷到处挑选外套的商场 在狭小的床上蜷缩
无论身处何时何地 风暴总在耳边呼啸
那是有人旋起思念的风暴
无处可逃
寒冬
冬天终于来了 虽然偶尔的阳光明媚
仍然玻璃上留下了淡蓝的氤氲
日落前的天 是狰狞的脸
最后一抹光明散去时
盯着发呆的电话-你在干嘛呢？
夜
痛苦的夜 漫长的夜 恐怖的夜 悄无声息的夜
它吞噬一切
让思绪重新泛滥
在这一片寒冷 空洞的黑暗领域中蜷缩
想靠近那熟悉的温度
梦
一遍遍 一次次
周而复始 清晰的画面 连续的情节
梦
是反 是正
当浅浅浮在梦的表面的夜晚
无法沉睡 不愿醒来
羁跘
手机 网络 现代人的羁跘
看似很近 实则遥远
还不如 让人回到原始的信笺时代
让挂念取代期盼
心头的珍珠 是痛苦的眼泪徒劳的包裹着心中的刺
总有一天 会重见天日。
break要结束了break 就快要结束了，今年的easter show 没有去成，算了 反正也都是一样的东西
2个星期还是过勒挺久 感觉， 只是觉得啥也没干。除了打打工 小逛了下街 破费了下 也就没啥事儿了
break完了过后又是一大堆的assignment 和 test 来了，
说着要 好好学习了·· 说了n次 都还是没有质的变化 呵呵
不过真的要在后面几周努力了 不想再像上学期那样在考试周前那么累了
身心都无比疲惫
SIBT的毕业典没有去 也懒的去 害怕嘈杂
有时候挺矛盾的 安静的时候想热闹 热闹了却想独自安静 怪~
仿佛在期待着啥，能期待吗？ 应该能吧····
梦到的人和事 不想从中清醒 或许有时能就那样睡着 梦着还不错吧·
意外的收获 意外的消息 真的能给自己实现吗？该高兴还是该怎么着？
anyway 方向总是不会改变的···· 阴霾过后是雨过天晴还是 越行越远， 要自己去抓住去得到值得的人和事··
最近听noral jones,喜欢她的声线 喜欢淡淡的歌词
时不时的和朋友小连几把星际，还是蛮惬意的，费是稍微有点儿费脑子。
今儿打球 2分钟歇菜 喘个不停，肺都快炸掉了。 咋现在都这样了呢 不能啊， 不至于吧 P 和 V 都能比我撑的久了 ··· 看来是这半年宅太久了···哎
总的来说 break 就这样结束平淡无比中 夹杂着半夜一个电话中的惊喜。就这样吧 结束的break。 assignments and tests，来吧
死咯算咯！ 自杀！ 不要理我！
哈哈哈哈 说着玩儿的 太无聊了······ 不要信以为真······· 我是从不说谎乖小孩儿···· 叁月有人对我的spaces很不满，更新慢，换全白不适应，C同学··您要求还真多 啊哈哈哈
最近仿佛花钱似流水，自己美其名曰犒劳自己，却被C同学揭穿--就自己想买呗··· 汗一个。 便宜的小背心疯狂入手当中··· Kobe的金色24为啥到处都没呢？好不容易看到有 却没有S号··· 连花都不要我花。 继续将就我的 Iverson当睡衣 穿着家里到处晃悠吧。
目前还是没搞清楚 为啥我的电话卡 可以给国内发短信 国内手机发过来的短信我却一直收不到，破3G。 还让我自己打电话到技术部去问， 真能听明白说明白的话，我上课也就能全听懂他说啥了···
那天的游戏又仿佛让我，bob, lu, nick回到了读语言那没日没夜的联机魔兽加星际的日子，好久没4个人一起玩儿游戏了。
想想最近一次台球桌上联3C的日子是啥时候啊？ 记不得了
国内的朋友给我说要结婚了，居然都到这个时候了啊？ 前两天在想，我今年到底是22 还是23，还专门问了个朋友我到底今年该是多少岁，仿佛渐渐的连自己是多大都记不清了，或许生日也就是找个借口放松的日子，没啥特殊。老了吗？ 啊哈哈哈哈 估计说这个话好多人得用愤怒的眼神杀死我。好吧好吧 我还年轻···
澳洲的第5个住处，搬过来也快2个月了，越发的受不了这个破地方，跟个宿舍一样。破网总是在更新后的半个月内用光流量，有流量的时候还时常的连不上，连上了都只是连到路由器上，根本用不了，房东还block爆多的端口，让人N多的网页打不开，甚至连学校的网站都被block了 这还咋下notes和交作业啊，简直不让人活！一定要继续的搬家！
准备慢慢的放弃可乐 改喝茶， 有人说我现在是老大爷的生活，自己也觉得像，起床的目的就是等睡觉，中途在泡个茶喝喝，看看小说，等着该睡觉的时候睡觉 是不是该换个生活方式了呢？换成啥样？ 得，到时候再说吧，先就这么将就着吧，我是一个懒人，连看着美女都懒的搭讪的人。
开学第4周了，几乎翘掉了所有的早课，连11点的课都翘··· 看来我还真不适合选上午的课啊。上学期后面2个月全勤的课是咋上出来的啊？下周开始考试，ECON200完全不懂··-_-# 这咋整？ 难道开学一个月 俺的 就该去图书管了吗？
打算这学期完了回国，也该回了，仿佛听说成都到悉尼的航班有直飞了，挺好的 省的去转机了。李同学都说给我安排好成都3日游了，诶，有必要吗？ 我才1年半没回，就真把我当乡下的拉，虽然说悉尼确实很乡下。
想交朋友的人的脸是看的出来的，这是真的吗？ 那我现在肯定是全身披刺，再带个头套写上不要理我的那种了。
至今没有重新买炒锅，一个人还是懒的做东西吃，做了吃着也没味儿。还是出去吃好了 回国前一定要把体重反弹到110. 要像现在这样回去，估计人以为我是去的阿富汗 不是澳洲。
得先更新到这儿吧，免得下回没的写的。
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10天的雨季 自从2月6号过后
sensitive
一切都是那么的敏感
两周
头发长了 又想剪了
指甲长了 必须剪了
do it
do it by self
试着去做饭
“原来会做饭啊 你”
对啊 原来我会给自己做饭的
Dove的味道
粉丝的味道
海苔的味道
醒来天花板是4叶的吊扇
而不是蓝色的的纱帘
开始
习惯穿着其中一件IVERSON睡觉
习惯床头一块专门的靠枕
习惯蜷着度过整晚
习惯让自己过得习惯
简简单单的起床等睡觉就快结束了
开始计算回去的日子
累了吧
还得熬
故作坚强 像个小孩
游戏到深夜 好让自己安稳的入睡
不想醒过来
破mac每天折磨着我 却又不得不依靠着她
或许在向我示威吧 不对她好点儿就每天抽风
时间只会让人结疤
set free? not bad.
不要再问我过的咋样了，好吗？
不要再问我啥时候回了，好吗？
不要再问我现在多重了，好吗？
脖子上的铺首会守护我的，对吧？
不愿听到任何字眼
许下的承诺 答应过的事 就会做到
应该会吧··· 会努力的去做的
我是一个好人？
不
我是一个坏人。
有时，一别，或许就是一辈子···
天气，晴
体温，37
ps: 呵呵 刚写下晴，雨的声音就钻进我的耳朵里
天气，雨
清醒作业写到人清醒无比毫无睡意
不知是好还是坏
作业
上课
复习
考试
搬家
过年
香烟
食物
可乐
一个电话号码
一个MSN
一个QQ
一个铺首
清醒
还是糊涂
不得而知
不想睡
和想睡
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一个人的夜夜 ·一个人的夜
黑黑的屋子里电脑屏幕的光总是那么刺眼，可又是那样的离不开它，仅仅是盯着它发呆也是一种慰藉 最近习惯性的放空，随时随地，走在路上突然发现不知道自己要去哪儿 看着书 突然发现原来自己在看书 坐在SHOPPING CENTER 突然发现好像该吃东西了 看来放空不是啥好习惯 赶明儿把自己弄丢了都不知道
想睡的时候总是睡不着 好不容易睡着了吧 没几个小时 大清早醒过一次就再也无法入睡 仿佛总是处在浅度睡眠状态当中 还好安眠药星期6就到了 不用受这该死的夜的折磨了 最近时常在想个问题 为啥以前的我可以那样没心没肺的睡到大下午 呵呵 还真是怀念睡醒了吃晚饭的日子 最近反应好像最近变迟钝了 想啥事儿都得叫别人HOLD ON 不行！ 我可是以敏捷为资本的人 2009好像大家都感觉不太好 一个一个坏消息接踵而至 今儿晚上我姐说我某件事儿到遇到的是最高境界， 我还挺那个啥的哈，一不小心就到了最高境界 其实我想给她说的是 我不是故意的 我也没法子 有一个笑话 说的是有个人晚上失眠 住他楼上的人总是很晚回家 而且每天回去感觉都很累 每次都把鞋重重的扔地板上 让楼下那人好不容易酝酿的睡意全无 但是有一天 楼下那人听见了一只鞋的声音 却没听见另一只鞋的声音 因此他那晚上彻彻底底的没睡着 就为了等待另一只鞋扔在地板上的声音 或许最近的失眠 我也像那楼下的人等待另一只鞋一样 等待那习惯性抽搐
为什么闲的时候啥事儿也没有 有事儿的时候 啥事情总都是一件接这一件的像赶集一样的蜂拥而至 本来就没心情学习的时候 考试却一个接着一个 作业一堆接着一堆 还得帮朋友的忙 帮他朋友找房 赶巧了 破电脑也开始罢工 怎么弄怎么不好 不会是寿终正寝了吧 那不是还得买电脑 不要 破MQ才刚刚席卷了我12500 我才没闲钱去换电脑呢 原以为今儿个正好没事儿 明儿个也没课 可以好好休息一下 最近超负荷运转的脑子 结果十分的不配合 那么清醒
我没用被子捂着头睡觉啊 为啥那么多梦 还大同小异
或许现在的我仅仅是一些思维片段 中间少了些联系 不然怎么会如此的思维混乱和间歇性的放空呢？如果哪个国家科研机构想要研究一下 我倒是可以当下试验品
时间一晃 我在悉尼的时间 就从2007转战到2009了 长大了的时间都是过的那么的快吗？ 想回家了 真的好累 好想回次成都 看着朋友们天天问我啥时候回 我都只能苦笑着说 MAYBE 6月 真的想回去了 或许歇斯底里的针扎真的让人累了吧 能让我休息下吗？手机 QQ MSN 每天看一百遍 却总是在同样的区域 心烦意乱 流连忘返
除夕啊 马上又要除夕了
我也不知道自己说了些啥 有时候无聊的发发疯总比时不时的放放空来的安全 而且最近才发现 原来不是睡着了就不会胡思乱想了 得 先就这样了吧
1月 关键词 合适 合拍 责任 逃亡 折磨
新年新年
所有的所有都放在了2008
回家2小时 让家变成了我曾经的家
不想多说话···
所有的所有 都没有挨过2008
2008 12 31
9点
再见
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